by bosco (Ben)

In the summer of 2007, a practitioner known on alt.religion.shamanism as bosco described the aftermath of what he called the most significant shamanistic act of his lifetime — an act that drew the fury of powerful hostile entities. What followed was months of spiritual siege, an unwanted attachment, and a practice of pure endurance. The counsel he received was a single word: abide.

This post documents one of the more unusual shamanistic situations in the archive: not a journey into other worlds, but a practitioner forced to remain still under sustained spiritual pressure. The entity's eventual departure — attaching itself to a stranger in a public place — is told with the matter-of-fact plainness that marks bosco's best writing. He never claims to understand everything. He reports what happened.

Ben wrote steadily on alt.religion.shamanism from roughly 2003 to 2009, building one of the most consistent firsthand practitioner journals in the group's history.

I did something a Shamanistic act on June 3 of this year. It will probably be the biggest Shamanistic event of my lifetime. It certainly was the biggest thing I have done in a Shamanistic way to date. That being said, my purpose is not to share what happened, rather I wanted to talk about a side effect of the event.

I made several 'things' very very angry with me. Very powerful entities, with a venomous hate. A few days after I did what I did, one came and attached itself to me. I traveled to seek counsel and advice about what I should do about my situation. The answer surprised me. I was told directly and simply to 'abide'. Abide is a word I do not think I have ever used or written, but I knew exactly why that word was chosen because it was so precise with no ambiguity.

Of course I did not like that answer so I went to other places in search of advice, and while I learned the reasons why I should simply 'abide', it did not sound rational. I was told that what I did was so serious that if I were to take action against what had attached itself to me, that it would make my situation elevate to a level where I would have no possibility of overcoming and defeating. Who was I to argue with advice like that? I started myself on a journey to learn how to abide and be uninvolved in everything that was happening around me.

As time went on I was slowly cut off from the other worlds, travel became very difficult to impossible. I finally arrived at a place and time where my whole spiritual world was one of abiding, no more, no less, there was nothing more I could do other than give in, which was not likely to happen in this lifetime. Everything around me was being effected in this world. I had no control and trying to change situations had no effect, so all I could do was 'abide'. Of course, I knew that these things were temporary and an illusion, nothing really changed except my perspective was being warped, as it tried to impose its will on me.

Tonight I was in public among strangers when a young man sat down close to me. My attachment immediately was interested in this young man. After about twenty to thirty minutes I realized it was oozing off my back and wrapping itself around this young man's shoulders and back. As soon as it broke all contact with me I felt almost immediate joy and relief! It was like I was up and watching a springtime sunrise, my world was changing that fast! I had forgotten what it was like to be just me, and not me with something attached to me that was completely foreign to everything in my spiritual makeup. Wow, what a beautiful feeling it is, I had forgotten!

Unfortunately for the young man, while I was reveling in my newfound freedom, and my time of abiding appeared to be over, he stood up quickly and left. I had wanted to warn him, but the opportunity never came. Perhaps the 'thing' that was now attached to the young man, was already imposing its will and wanted to get away from me before I could say anything to the young man? Of course there is always that delicate problem of what do you say....

I now feel like I have arrived back from a long trip. I do not regret what happened or the after effects, and I would do what I did over again in a moment, even if I knew before hand what the after effects would be on myself. I really did not expect it to stay attached to me for the amount of time that it did, but again I would do it all over in a moment, if it needed to be done.

It's so good to be alive!

Colophon

Written by bosco (Ben) and posted to alt.religion.shamanism on August 3, 2007. Ben was one of the most consistent practitioner voices on the group from roughly 2003 to 2009 — a self-taught shaman who wrote with plainness and precision about journeys, spiritual attacks, and the theology of experience. This post documents one of the more unusual cases in the archive: a sustained spiritual siege following a major shamanistic act, and the practice of pure endurance that resolved it.

Preserved from the Usenet archive for the Good Work Library by the New Tianmu Anglican Church, 2026. Original Message-ID: 2007080223061016807-boscopelone@yahoocom.

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